Ding Dong the Relationship Is Dead

Hello all,

Finally last night Fuckhead ended his side of the relationship. After months of back and forth, me phone stalking him, and him not sending me my things, he finally answered me. I have been trying to get him to answer a simple yes or no question and he answered no at last.

If he answered yes I would be working on a relationship with him right now and since he said no I at least don't feel a need to contact him. That was a gift in itself. As you know, I have too much on my plate and could not handle the unanswered question, because the chance of getting back together was something to hope for and that hope was driving me crazy while unrequited.

I got to end things just as I wanted. I told him that I hope he continues with his success (that he sucked right from my very loins), that he find someone that fits his life better (he said that he compared everyone to me and no one was as special, ahem, ahem bull crap and no duh), and that he should NEVER come find me cause I would turn my life up side down because I love him and because I love him so much I would drop everything for him, I always will, and I can't live my life knowing that he would ever want me again.

Drama, right? I was crying the whole phone call, with him saying that he loved me, no one was like me and that he was going to come see me. But, when he finally said no, I finally pulled my life out of my ass and walked away with a small scrap of dignity while he wept on the other end of the phone.

I thought he was going to say yes until he kept on not saying anything. Because as many of my friends have pointed out, if the answer was yes it would be "Yes, yes, yes!" and not "............". I'm really exhausted from everything and I don't know where I'm going next, but at least I know it will be just me..........and Graham.